Art Block Survival | Drawing My OC

Art Block Survival | Drawing My OC


And I thought to myself, “Oh my eye is
improving and I’m catching my mistakes but I don’t know how to fix them yet,” and
I realized that I was having art block. Hi everyone, welcome back to Confused
Muse Art I’m Muse, and this channel is where I share my art journey and I hope
that you’ll share yours with me. The speedpaint playing in the background
is an illustration that I did to celebrate my Undertale AU OC Aster’s
birthday. Despite the amount of time that I spend on my fan comic, I haven’t really
spoken about it a lot on this channel and I’d like to change that. So this is
Aster, she’s the main character of my alternate universe comic called Negatedtale. At the beginning of the comic she has lost her timeline and is trapped in
a void, but somehow manages to find a strange tablet which allows her to
communicate with different dimensions including our own. So there is an
interactive fouth wall element to the comic where the readers get reconnected
to a point in Aster’s past and have a chance to influence the story and the
actions that the characters take. If that sounds complicated I apologize. (laughs)
Apparently I am incapable of making simple short stories, but I’ve been
having a blast with it and I’m learning a ton about making comics as I go since
this is the first long-form comic I’ve ever made. But, I’m not here to only talk
about my fan comic today, although if it sounds like something you’d be
interested in reading, the link will be in the description underneath this video.
Today I’m going to talk about art block in terms of kind of growing pains, which
is something I’ve discussed in an older video in broader terms in the past, kind
of comparing art block to burnout and the differences between the two, so I
apologize if I repeat myself from that video, but recently I’ve been struggling
with drawing my comic not because of a loss of interest or drive. I’m really
excited for a few things coming up in the story and I realized recently that I
am in for the long haul with this comic even though I’ve been pulling away from
the Undertale fandom at large. I also run a ship week every year, but like despite
all of that I’m just really happy with my friends and my
little corner of the Internet in terms of just expressing myself, and this story
has a planned of meta-narrative that is about kind of my personal relationship
with fandom and what it did for me, so my problems aren’t related to anything
about that side of it. My problems were with my skill level. So recently in the
comic there’s been a lot of characters standing and talking to each other,
responding to the fourth wall comments which has been great for building up
where this chapter is going to go but I feel it’s not very visually interesting
so I tried to experiment a bit with composition and character expressions on
the pages but I immediately ran into a wall where my skill level was and it was
not on par with what I wanted to accomplish and I didn’t know how to
address that. I also started to see a ton of anatomy mistakes, which, even
though I have a more cartoony style I like to keep things roughly proportional
with the characters, but the way I was placing some facial features just felt
wrong, and no matter how many times I sketched a certain panel I couldn’t make
it feel right. And it was massively frustrating. It felt similar to another
time, which I also made a video about, when I drew some fanart
of Aqua from Kingdom Hearts roughly a year ago, and I thought to myself, “Oh, my
eye is improving and I’m catching my mistakes but I don’t know how to fix
them yet,” and I realized that I was having art block. And it really bites,
that period where you want to draw something but everything that you draw
looks wrong to you and even though you know every single artist ever has gone
through this or will go through this or is also going through it right now, it
still just sucks to be in the middle of it. So I had to delay the comic update
because every panel I drew, to me, looked like garbage. Which also sucks because
even though I’m not shy about delaying comic updates anymore because work
happens, and life happens, and sometimes the
update just doesn’t get finished, which is also the pitfall of making an
interactive comic because there is no buffer, I’m making this week to week in
real time. But this time it’s sucked because it wasn’t because of work or
life or even an art related injury. In the past, I’ve delayed putting up updates
because of, like my wrist was hurting or things like that. It was because I was
and still am going through artist growing pains and putting out a page
that I thought looked terrible felt dishonest. But once I admitted to myself
that I wasn’t going to get the page done I was able to focus on what was causing
those feelings and also realized that I needed to step away from the comic page
for a little bit, like not forever but at least for a few days. And at the same
time I remembered that Aster’s birthday was coming up and I hadn’t done anything
that wasn’t comics pretty much all year. I’d planned to do my yearly redraw in
January and that didn’t happen. Stay tuned for that video, it’ll probably
happen this summer. But the point is, I was only putting out comic pages. Which
was fine, but since I’d run face first into an art block I needed to do
something else and an illustration was exactly what I needed at the moment. I’m
not saying that I was thinking, “Oh, comics caused all my problems, I only like
illustration now” or “Illustration is so much easier,” because it’s not, it’s just a
different kind of art. But being able to focus on a single image instead of all
the things that go into a comic page was nice and I really enjoyed it. Also the
timing was just really good because I’ve tried to draw something every year on
Aster’s birthday because she’s a character who’s really important to me,
but last year I was so busy with work that I could only do a sketch, so at the
time I thought, “Oh well, next year I’m gonna do, you know, a full picture.” So
because I wanted to do something more expansive this year and since I couldn’t
continue the comic that week, I thought a picture of her doing something far
happier than her current status in a comic would be a nice change. (laughs) I’m not
sure how long this art block is going to last but
nice to know that while I’m still plugging away at things like art studies
in the background, I can still create and that everything doesn’t have to come to
a standstill while my skill level catches up to my eye.
And in the meantime, after doing this and after going back to art studies and
things like that, I’ve also been able to go back to comics. And it’s still kind of
a day-to-day thing, but I I’m noticing that things are getting better and the
art block is slowly going away. So this has been an art ramble. (laughs)
I hope that this was helpful or interesting in some way to those of you
out there who are struggling with your own art block. I keep telling myself that
art is a marathon not a sprint, and that my art is always growing even if I don’t
see it at the moment. If you’re interested in the speedpaint,
I drew a good portion of this live on my Twitch channel,
twitch.tv/confusedmuse If you like chill art streams, please
consider checking it out. If you’d like to see more videos talking about my
experiences and thoughts on art block, burnout, and my art process in general,
consider checking out my other videos. Clicking the like button and subscribing
will help my channel grow! Thank you so much for listening, and I will see you
next time! Bye!

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