today we’ll try an unusual challenge i will remain in this room for 24 hours working non-stop except to eat, sleep, and toilet break in the past few months my hand has been injured and no matter how hard i tried i couldn’t draw as well as i used to having the thought that you won’t be able to do what you loved before or not as good as you used to, really diminishes your motale i stopped drawing last month completely the recoil is so strong! the past couple of months have been wasted the drizzle you hear is from the shower when the room is humid, the paper unravels faster it turns out that, when i stop doing this and that my wrist started to heal better so i wanted to draw again however, what had disappeared was probably confidence because i couldn’t do it for so long i became unsure if i could still do it having not drawn in a long time, all my equipment went missing pencils, erasers etc. so i had to buy new what a waste thinking about the pain of having to crawl on the floor for 24 hours holding pencils and my knees and back… seems fun… i feel that if i could manage this, i could manage other things too and that feeling of “i can do this” is very important to me right now in truth, i haven’t felt this alive, fun and excited in a long time it is now 17:04, 31st of August decided to start in the evening because drawing will take around 5-6 hours which doesn’t require that much lighting to see the colours so i’ll keep daylight for painting tomorrow now the problem that i encountered was when drawing such a large scale, the sketch i prepared doesn’t really work so i just winged it for this project there are two things i have never tried before which are the size and acrylic paint the sketch is done, i’ll start to pencil them down it’s now getting dark having both the size and paint which i am not accustomed to, made work much slower than i thought so in the beginning i was really stressed because i really felt i won’t finish in time it might really turn out bad i feel that drawing with paint, then drawing over with pencil is quite pretty 20:02, time for five minute meal break 20:07 now i’m testing the acrylic paint that i will use the reason i’m testing them is because i’m using both acrylic and coloured pencils for this project and i’m afraid they might not go well together the colour pencils i’m using are watercolour pencils i think i’ll save time by drawing and then swipe with water detail with acrylic as well as add water colour it is now 10 PM i’m getting tired i have allergies when i’m tired literally allergic to fatigue *i have no idea what it is but i get rashes when i’m fatigued, please tell me what it is* itchyy wait why is it so big? what have i done i believe i have done enough drawing to be able to continue with acrylic painting tomorrow it is now 23:58 we need a minimum of 4-5 hours of sleep per day therefore… 5 AM, almost 6 i’ll grab some coffe and then… we’ll continue this is.. morning excercise another day of overcast i was so sleepy i forgot to show the time it is now… 6:40, 1st of August this is the first time i seriously use a straight cut paintbrush i have always been avoiding straight cut paintbrushes i felt this brush was hard to control it had to face only the right angle and direction in order to get the right colour but with acrylic paint, the straight cut brush suits better and the lines are clear so it was like getting to try a new technique i’m still not used to acrylic especially in wide areas so i used it like watercolour, which works too but like a more vivid watercolour i made a time-consuming mistake here using nitto to make crisp geometric shapes was too time-consuming so i was faced with the problem that if i try to fix this it would take too much time perhaps what i made here i might have to paint over if i waste time to continue on it i might waste more time i’ll just brush it off damage control my butt hurts my knees too my knees are all red this texture with fingers and tissue is quite pretty oops, mistake ok, concentrate concentrate i have no focus right now mind and body are tortured, so i will meditate this is an app called youper that i use there are several meditation modes for you to chose from here once you’ve picked which meditation mode it lets you pick how long you want to meditate, two minutes should do it how much time is left? it is now… there’s about almost 7 hours left i ordered some gold paint to use because it’s a colour that has volume with light and shadow from its gleam without having to create light and shadow myself which saves a lot of time now there’s just about 3 hours left for this with barely any progress oh my god i’m panicking right now even though it might not seem like it water’s out, snacks are out, everything is out my arms hurt, my knees hurt shoulders in pain, butt in pain but right now i’m in a fire up my ass mode i’m trying to go as fast as i can it has to finish no matter what it is now half past three in the afternoon and it’s about to rain..hard very very very hard oh noooo there’s not much time left and it is far from finished so my strategy is add the strongest colours and cut with bold lines once the overall image has complete volume, it looks finished final minute time’s up i’m so tired drop dead all i can do is drop dead i’m tired and it’s dark it won’t look pretty anymore if i film the picture let’s say… look…look…look…look *moans in seal* no pictures *seal noises* *sinister laugh* ouch that hurt my life no longer has purpose except for editing this clip, posting it should i do 48 hours next time? i need my corpse to be pick up like this lock yourself in here? yes didn’t go anywhere? what did you do? just paint? draw, toilet, sleep, eat same pants for two days because i didn’t wanna mess up two pairs my knees and elbows are so red my body’s disintegrating, but i’m so hapopy *happy seal clap* congratulations i’m gonna find some good food and sleep, bye!